She wakes up, takes her medication, falls back asleep for a couple of hours. When she opens her eyes due to a golden magnitude of puppy kisses, smiles and says thank you to her universe. As she does this, she is in pain and is aware that even 4 feet away, she has to make it to the bathroom before she urinates herself, but hey, its still a Great day.
In her mind she wonders,will I ever have a multitude of days without pain? She believes she will, and hey it is still a good day.
She begins to prepare dinner at 10 a.m. as after 1p.m the pain is a little unbearable, knowing this she thinks, it's still a great day.
She meditates listening to Deepak while visualizing herself running in a field, the smell of the grass and the feel of the free Vitamin D is glorious.
She gets on the excercise bike and does 6 minutes, Victory.
She has taken her Probiotics and Vitamin B1. She is grateful that she has these supplements.
She looks at her flourishing container gardens, this is congenial.
She hears the birds chirping, this is so beautiful to her.
She has a shower,sitting on her bench and is very Grateful that she can get out of the tub without any assistance. This brings her the greatest attributes of happiness.
She is aware that she has dreams and doesn't want to die thinking if only I lived.
She is aware that she is currently an extra in her own movie, she wants to be the main character eventually.
She hears a knock at the door, it's Fear, she closes and locks the door. Not this time.
She does not want her biggest regret to be if only I lived.
Dr. King had a dream or hmm she thinks,that dream chose him.
Universe-Uni='One Verse=Song
She knows struggle and criticisms are prerequisites to Success, she is ready and Grateful for the knowledge, she has decided that she is going to create A Brand New Ending.
Monday 30 May 2016
Saturday 28 May 2016
I am
I got a call yesterday from one of my old students who was in a mess to which she didn't realize that she had created on her repetitive cycle of abandoment.
You see many of us come from abandonedment, it is such a horrible treacherous feeling, I would describe the feeling as empty, let me explain.
When you have no parents to provide a foundation for values,love,money,virtues, and beliefs you get pretty lost while grasping for someone to teach and love you.
You see when you are born, you are pure, you have a blank page, the first seven years of your life the memories are embedded in your sub-conscious.
If in those years are filled with say, molestation,abuse,yelling,favoritism with another sibling,fights about money, think about what's embedded in your broken self conscience, sadly you don't become aware for many years, if ever.
Many behaviours include looking for love in all the wrong places, I know good song right? You meet people and on the first date you most likely overwhelmed him/her, by using the words, need,kids,love,not close to family, and little do you know that you are creating insane maddness. You have just created fuck friend #who knows. And even tho u sense this on some level you still go to his vehicle, the hotel room that he/she had reserved, your place,his/her place. You do not know that you can say no. You engage in the sexual act, only because for a moment you may have someone spoon with you and you feel safe.
If you belive your narrative thoughts due to your past it's brutal the Zen say that you are already dead. Your I is I am worthless. With this belief comes self sabbatoging behaviors. There is nothing to attain, you are numb inside.There were no healthy road maps for you to build your great, authentic self. Just toxicity that is built and manifested on an ongoing basis.
I told my student that she is worthy, she asked me what I mean, (not gonna lie this saddened me but as a therapist I did not share this as this was not about me it was about her.) She then told me that she had to help her abusive alcoholic mom. I asked her why?
She asked me what I meant. I said why do you feel obligated to her, do you think that helping her is connected to the evilness that she done to you and the toxicity is a comfortable place for you? She took a breathe and asked am I miss?.To which I replied, Yes, very much so honey.
I let her know what a beautiful day that you have realized this at 27. You will be the conducter of your Victory Change, it takes discipline and repetition are you ready?
I asked again, I am worthy, I am And we started there,
You see many of us come from abandonedment, it is such a horrible treacherous feeling, I would describe the feeling as empty, let me explain.
When you have no parents to provide a foundation for values,love,money,virtues, and beliefs you get pretty lost while grasping for someone to teach and love you.
You see when you are born, you are pure, you have a blank page, the first seven years of your life the memories are embedded in your sub-conscious.
If in those years are filled with say, molestation,abuse,yelling,favoritism with another sibling,fights about money, think about what's embedded in your broken self conscience, sadly you don't become aware for many years, if ever.
Many behaviours include looking for love in all the wrong places, I know good song right? You meet people and on the first date you most likely overwhelmed him/her, by using the words, need,kids,love,not close to family, and little do you know that you are creating insane maddness. You have just created fuck friend #who knows. And even tho u sense this on some level you still go to his vehicle, the hotel room that he/she had reserved, your place,his/her place. You do not know that you can say no. You engage in the sexual act, only because for a moment you may have someone spoon with you and you feel safe.
If you belive your narrative thoughts due to your past it's brutal the Zen say that you are already dead. Your I is I am worthless. With this belief comes self sabbatoging behaviors. There is nothing to attain, you are numb inside.There were no healthy road maps for you to build your great, authentic self. Just toxicity that is built and manifested on an ongoing basis.
I told my student that she is worthy, she asked me what I mean, (not gonna lie this saddened me but as a therapist I did not share this as this was not about me it was about her.) She then told me that she had to help her abusive alcoholic mom. I asked her why?
She asked me what I meant. I said why do you feel obligated to her, do you think that helping her is connected to the evilness that she done to you and the toxicity is a comfortable place for you? She took a breathe and asked am I miss?.To which I replied, Yes, very much so honey.
I let her know what a beautiful day that you have realized this at 27. You will be the conducter of your Victory Change, it takes discipline and repetition are you ready?
I asked again, I am worthy, I am And we started there,
Friday 27 May 2016
Thursday 19 May 2016
Why the Ongoing Misunderstanding? Why?.
The number one causation for people with MS is to avoid exhasterbations is,wait for it......STRESS, weLL to think about it the whole global race really. I have had Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis for 14 yrs. and I have always had great doctors, so this led me to having a bit of belief in them. Well this stood to be corrected yesterday.
You see, many of us who live with severe chronic pain, and you see I said, "Live with."Now you see when I use the word Live, I use it differently then you visualize. If we have the strength and ability to get out of bed and make it to the washroom, this is Living.
If we can speak full sentences without our dysplasia having you convinced that we have been messing with the bottle, this is Living
Sunshine, ( I don'the say heck) if we don't have to wear Depends, this is Living.
If are able to stand without wobbling for 10 minutes, this is Living
If we can make/bake a delicious meal for two or more, man this is Living Large
If we get thru a flipping day, without Falling, this is Living
If our depression doesn't last longer then a couple of years, this is Living
If our vulnerability doesn't get taken advantage to the sadtreme, this this is Living
Sunshine and abundance is around us and within us, this is repetition and Belief
If others around us don't understand our chaos, let that be all good, throw them a Smile and A Nonyon.....#Nonyon=None of your Business😀
If you have a devoted,sexy,faithful,love has NO Limits partner,Have Gratitude and reciprocate....True Love
If you can wake up in the morning and even though in pain, smile ( Awesome for your norepinephrines) and say 10 things that you are grateful for, This is aligning yourself with Limitless
If you can do two of the five tasks that is on your list, smile at least, I don't know, lose count, put on your favorite song, dance a little, chair dance, Walker dance or wall dance,read for a little in the Vitamin Remember with a hat and coolant vest of course, I'mean just sayin..Do some container gardening and say Thank you with Recognition....This is Faith
Doctors who think we Don'the need naps and we take Narcotics because we are addicted and it'seems not pain relief ...Egotistical UNEDUCATED yet Rudecated with no barries....And existence that we need Educated about. ..US
We are WORTHY
Namaste
,
You see, many of us who live with severe chronic pain, and you see I said, "Live with."Now you see when I use the word Live, I use it differently then you visualize. If we have the strength and ability to get out of bed and make it to the washroom, this is Living.
If we can speak full sentences without our dysplasia having you convinced that we have been messing with the bottle, this is Living
Sunshine, ( I don'the say heck) if we don't have to wear Depends, this is Living.
If are able to stand without wobbling for 10 minutes, this is Living
If we can make/bake a delicious meal for two or more, man this is Living Large
If we get thru a flipping day, without Falling, this is Living
If our depression doesn't last longer then a couple of years, this is Living
If our vulnerability doesn't get taken advantage to the sadtreme, this this is Living
Sunshine and abundance is around us and within us, this is repetition and Belief
If others around us don't understand our chaos, let that be all good, throw them a Smile and A Nonyon.....#Nonyon=None of your Business😀
If you have a devoted,sexy,faithful,love has NO Limits partner,Have Gratitude and reciprocate....True Love
If you can wake up in the morning and even though in pain, smile ( Awesome for your norepinephrines) and say 10 things that you are grateful for, This is aligning yourself with Limitless
If you can do two of the five tasks that is on your list, smile at least, I don't know, lose count, put on your favorite song, dance a little, chair dance, Walker dance or wall dance,read for a little in the Vitamin Remember with a hat and coolant vest of course, I'mean just sayin..Do some container gardening and say Thank you with Recognition....This is Faith
Doctors who think we Don'the need naps and we take Narcotics because we are addicted and it'seems not pain relief ...Egotistical UNEDUCATED yet Rudecated with no barries....And existence that we need Educated about. ..US
We are WORTHY
Namaste
,
Sunday 15 May 2016
That was then this is now
You wake up at 6 a.m., throw off your duvet ,your feet touch the ground, you go pee as sitting on the toilet is something that you take for granted , pick your favorite towel and have a shower, no problem. You put on your favorite music, put on your makeup, put on your work attire, head downstairs, make your coffee and breakfast and off to work you go, driving in your car. Sound's good right? Your average weekday yes?
Well let's redo that day now, living with MS, let's keep it real.You wake up in the morning riddled with Chronic Pain, yet you are Grateful. You say 10 things that you are grateful for and smile. You manage to stand up even tho that Vertigo is infused within you. Now, the bathroom is 5 feet away you don't even give this any thought yes? Different story for us. If you have a leaky bladder you might urinate yourself before you reach the bathroom,you feel many types of emotions as you lose your dignity.
Stairs, nope many of us can't climb stairs, not now anyways. Shower, um yep if there is a sitting bench in it. Getting in the shower is a big success as predominantly your right leg is dead, no mobility. No more pretty work clothes and heels, forget about it. If you have clear vision, this is a blessing as 80% of us don't To sit up without the wobbles is a whole other story.To stand for 5 minutes without your walker is a Victory.
O.K. for some of us this is our reality. Can't we have a better way of life? Yes, I believe we can, it begins with our choices and our thoughts.I recommend a powerful read by Linda Dryer, I believe if you are aware you can change. I believed this once I came out of my three year Depression but I didn't align my behaviors with my thoughts and then when nothing happened , I thought, nope doesn't work, but then I realized that it was me, I didn't work. It was a big realization, I Owned it.
I want you to get rid of your self-limiting beliefs. Don't let our disease win, we only have one life, please let's live it.
Since I met me, I have lost 38 pds. I have control of my disease, I smile more and like looking at myself in the mirror., and I have only just begun.
I want us to live, I want to share my learning's with everyone.Stop focusing on the negativity of this dis-ease as it will overcome you, focus on the positive, find one thing and start there.
I AM..........
Reinvent yourself you have the Power my friend
Until Next Time, Namaste
Well let's redo that day now, living with MS, let's keep it real.You wake up in the morning riddled with Chronic Pain, yet you are Grateful. You say 10 things that you are grateful for and smile. You manage to stand up even tho that Vertigo is infused within you. Now, the bathroom is 5 feet away you don't even give this any thought yes? Different story for us. If you have a leaky bladder you might urinate yourself before you reach the bathroom,you feel many types of emotions as you lose your dignity.
Stairs, nope many of us can't climb stairs, not now anyways. Shower, um yep if there is a sitting bench in it. Getting in the shower is a big success as predominantly your right leg is dead, no mobility. No more pretty work clothes and heels, forget about it. If you have clear vision, this is a blessing as 80% of us don't To sit up without the wobbles is a whole other story.To stand for 5 minutes without your walker is a Victory.
O.K. for some of us this is our reality. Can't we have a better way of life? Yes, I believe we can, it begins with our choices and our thoughts.I recommend a powerful read by Linda Dryer, I believe if you are aware you can change. I believed this once I came out of my three year Depression but I didn't align my behaviors with my thoughts and then when nothing happened , I thought, nope doesn't work, but then I realized that it was me, I didn't work. It was a big realization, I Owned it.
I want you to get rid of your self-limiting beliefs. Don't let our disease win, we only have one life, please let's live it.
Since I met me, I have lost 38 pds. I have control of my disease, I smile more and like looking at myself in the mirror., and I have only just begun.
I want us to live, I want to share my learning's with everyone.Stop focusing on the negativity of this dis-ease as it will overcome you, focus on the positive, find one thing and start there.
I AM..........
Reinvent yourself you have the Power my friend
Until Next Time, Namaste
Saturday 7 May 2016
Having a Focus while living with MS
MS is a scary diagnoses, 1.Because you may be ignorant to what it really is and 2. You may not be aware of how much both you and your life is going to completley change and this equals Fear and Chaos. One's mobility is deeply affected, one's cognition is deeply affected, even our simple independence in going to the washroom is impacted.
For those of us who have never experienced depression, we certainly become it's close friend and for some it lasts for a very long time as we have lost our identity. This is not an easy journey and somehow we have to process this and create a new identity, a different life. We have to get used to ignorant people which may of been us in our old lives, staring at us whether we are with our walker, in our wheelchair, ( if fortunate) or in a scooter (again blessed). One thing that I tell people is, "It's not your business what other people think." The more you say this, the more you believe it.
Reinventing yourself can be a beautiful thing, you may even find your calling on the way. A lot of your redo begins with you and your perception of self. The pity party gets old and draining, there is so much hardship globally right now, that positivity is a beautiful breath of fresh air. Once you take on the belief of change and connect on some level with something bigger then you,you will have restorative Hope,without hope we have nothing. Yes we have dignity for dying but it's too soon my darling, there is too much about you and your power to discover. Yes you may have that hidden bottle of pills but there is no need as the longer you hold on to them it resignates doubt, the causation for this may likely be the one and only Fear. Fear can be challenged and removed but it begins with you. Yes we have been dealt a shitty hand, or have we? This may be an excellent opportunity to BEGIN.
I have so much to share with you and I want you to be here for it.Will you?
I am (name) I am Worthy and I am an asset to the universe
Let' s start now and we will do this
For those of us who have never experienced depression, we certainly become it's close friend and for some it lasts for a very long time as we have lost our identity. This is not an easy journey and somehow we have to process this and create a new identity, a different life. We have to get used to ignorant people which may of been us in our old lives, staring at us whether we are with our walker, in our wheelchair, ( if fortunate) or in a scooter (again blessed). One thing that I tell people is, "It's not your business what other people think." The more you say this, the more you believe it.
Reinventing yourself can be a beautiful thing, you may even find your calling on the way. A lot of your redo begins with you and your perception of self. The pity party gets old and draining, there is so much hardship globally right now, that positivity is a beautiful breath of fresh air. Once you take on the belief of change and connect on some level with something bigger then you,you will have restorative Hope,without hope we have nothing. Yes we have dignity for dying but it's too soon my darling, there is too much about you and your power to discover. Yes you may have that hidden bottle of pills but there is no need as the longer you hold on to them it resignates doubt, the causation for this may likely be the one and only Fear. Fear can be challenged and removed but it begins with you. Yes we have been dealt a shitty hand, or have we? This may be an excellent opportunity to BEGIN.
I have so much to share with you and I want you to be here for it.Will you?
I am (name) I am Worthy and I am an asset to the universe
Let' s start now and we will do this
Friday 6 May 2016
Don't you deserve Happiness?
Why Aren't you choosing Happiness?
You know all my life I didn't have a voice I allowed myself to be bullied out of my government job, no voice. I didn't know how to love with passion. I did not know my authentic self. My brother called me a "Tuff Pillow." I had no role models, my bio parents were and are drug and alcohol addicts. I could carry on but, "That was then this is now."
Now that I am older, I have found my core self and I fill it with love consistently. I meditate on a daily basis and I was able to let go of my abusive father, I prayed and literally saw his energy leave me, it was in that moment that I was able to forgive. I am very connected to my universe, something bigger then me and have the ability to read others energy quite accurately I have been told. I to believe that failure is an opportunity for a chance to succeed. Your life is bigger then one opportunity, when you are not feeling at ease that is your mind asking you to look at other options for success but you have to be still and listen to your heart. Many people are not able to sit still and listen to themselves due to buried chaos. Confront the chaos, there is an authentic you waiting to greet the world. It took me 46 years to meet my authentic self but it was well worth the wait, so are you my darling.
Start in the morning, while you are on the toilet say out loud 10 things that you are grateful for and send love to 3 people that have hurt you. This is a great place to start as you are waking up your sub conscience, stirring it up a little. Are you living your life aligned with negative messages? You don't have to but first you have to acknowledge this. Don't wake up everyday with the same routine not accomplishing anything really, work, cook, clean and the list goes on. What about waking up and doing something different, doing something to create a great day, you have the power, you don't have to walk around with negative messages, everyone needs validation why don't you validate yourself?
Happiness is a choice, you deserve it, now believe.......
You know all my life I didn't have a voice I allowed myself to be bullied out of my government job, no voice. I didn't know how to love with passion. I did not know my authentic self. My brother called me a "Tuff Pillow." I had no role models, my bio parents were and are drug and alcohol addicts. I could carry on but, "That was then this is now."
Now that I am older, I have found my core self and I fill it with love consistently. I meditate on a daily basis and I was able to let go of my abusive father, I prayed and literally saw his energy leave me, it was in that moment that I was able to forgive. I am very connected to my universe, something bigger then me and have the ability to read others energy quite accurately I have been told. I to believe that failure is an opportunity for a chance to succeed. Your life is bigger then one opportunity, when you are not feeling at ease that is your mind asking you to look at other options for success but you have to be still and listen to your heart. Many people are not able to sit still and listen to themselves due to buried chaos. Confront the chaos, there is an authentic you waiting to greet the world. It took me 46 years to meet my authentic self but it was well worth the wait, so are you my darling.
Start in the morning, while you are on the toilet say out loud 10 things that you are grateful for and send love to 3 people that have hurt you. This is a great place to start as you are waking up your sub conscience, stirring it up a little. Are you living your life aligned with negative messages? You don't have to but first you have to acknowledge this. Don't wake up everyday with the same routine not accomplishing anything really, work, cook, clean and the list goes on. What about waking up and doing something different, doing something to create a great day, you have the power, you don't have to walk around with negative messages, everyone needs validation why don't you validate yourself?
Happiness is a choice, you deserve it, now believe.......
Tuesday 3 May 2016
Healing should not be about $$$
You want to get better, you know it starts with the brain but everywhere you turn now everyone is a life coach and they want lots of your money.
When I was in a vulnerable state, I was desperate to feel better about my chronic pain and have a great life. One day I went to my emails ( I must have clicked something) and in 10 minutes a life changing webinar was about to start, I was very excited, trusting you may say. I did not know what to expect but I will tell you what I experienced.
This was a 7hr. webinar, yep that's right 7 hours and I lasted for 4 hours keeping in the back of my mind that we MS'ers are to avoid electronic devices as much as possible.
After about 36 minutes we were told that this $10,000 worth of material we would get at a low price of $1995. Wow in Canada over 85% of us are on CPP so how is this affordable? We were told that our lives would change dramatically, hey we could even become rich folk. I was burn tout and disappointed in myself for wasting 4 hours of my precious time.
I have manner.been doing research on health changes, I have lost 38 pounds and I feel great, I exercise, think positively and help myself.
Many people have asked me why don't I spiritual coach and share my knowledge as I won't hurt anybody or drain their wallets.
After my John Assaraf experience every which way I turned there was a life coach selling the same stuff just in a different course of action, you will be able to have no MS symptoms, accolades of riches they say you just have to spend a pile of money. There is one woman who says that she can cure MS but when asked how many PPMS people she cured, no answer. Do your research and remember healing starts with you.
When I was in a vulnerable state, I was desperate to feel better about my chronic pain and have a great life. One day I went to my emails ( I must have clicked something) and in 10 minutes a life changing webinar was about to start, I was very excited, trusting you may say. I did not know what to expect but I will tell you what I experienced.
This was a 7hr. webinar, yep that's right 7 hours and I lasted for 4 hours keeping in the back of my mind that we MS'ers are to avoid electronic devices as much as possible.
After about 36 minutes we were told that this $10,000 worth of material we would get at a low price of $1995. Wow in Canada over 85% of us are on CPP so how is this affordable? We were told that our lives would change dramatically, hey we could even become rich folk. I was burn tout and disappointed in myself for wasting 4 hours of my precious time.
I have manner.been doing research on health changes, I have lost 38 pounds and I feel great, I exercise, think positively and help myself.
Many people have asked me why don't I spiritual coach and share my knowledge as I won't hurt anybody or drain their wallets.
After my John Assaraf experience every which way I turned there was a life coach selling the same stuff just in a different course of action, you will be able to have no MS symptoms, accolades of riches they say you just have to spend a pile of money. There is one woman who says that she can cure MS but when asked how many PPMS people she cured, no answer. Do your research and remember healing starts with you.
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